shut. “Yeah,” Henry says. “Er, yes. It was all right. A bit awkward, you know, just having to sit there for ages.” “Oh, I remember,” Philip says. “When Mazzy and I did our first ones, I had this horrible rash on my arse from some idiotic poison-oak prank one of my uni friends had played on me that week, and it was all I could do to hold still and not rip my trousers off in the middle of Buckingham, much less try to take a nice photo. I thought she was going to murder me. Here’s hoping yours turn out better.” He chuckles a little awkwardly, clearly trying to bond with them. Alex scratches his nose. “Well, anyway, good luck, Bea.” Philip walks off, hands in his pockets, and all three of them watch his retreating back until it starts to disappear behind the tall hedges. Bea sighs. “D’you think I should have let him have a go at the cullen skink man for me?” “Not yet,” Henry says. “Give him another six months. He hasn’t earned it yet.” Blue or gray? Gray or blue? Alex has never been so torn between two equally innocuous blazers in his entire life. “This is stupid,” Nora says. “They’re both boring.” “Will you please just help me pick?” Alex tells her. He holds up a hanger in each hand, ignoring her judgmental look from where she’s perched atop his dresser. The pictures from election night tomorrow, win or lose, will follow him for the rest of his life. “Alex, seriously. I hate them both. You need something killer. This could be your fucking swan song.” “Okay, let’s not—” “Yes, okay, you're right, if the projections hold, we’re fine,” she says, hopping down. “So, do you want to talk about why you're choosing to punt so hard on this particular moment in your career as a risk-taking fashion plate?” “Nope,” Alex says. He waves the hangers at her. “Blue or gray?” “Okay, so.” She’s ignoring him. “I'll say it, then. You’re nervous.” He rolls his eyes. “Of course I’m nervous, Nora, it’s a presidential election and the president gave birth to me.” “Try again.” She’s giving him that look. The “I’ve already analyzed all the data on how much shit you're full of” look. He releases a hiss of a sigh. “Fine,” he says. “Fine, yeah, I’m nervous about going back to Texas.” He tosses both the blazers at the bed. Shit. “T always felt like Texas claiming me as their son was, you know, kind of conditional.” He paces, rubbing the back of his neck. “The whole half-Mexican, all Democrat thing. There’s a very loud contingent there that does not like me and does not want me to represent them. And now, it’s just. Not being straight. Having a boyfriend. Having a gay sex scandal with a European prince. I don’t know anymore.” He loves Texas—he believes in Texas. But he doesn’t know if Texas still loves him. He’s paced all the way to the opposite side of the room from her, and she watches him and cocks her head to one side. “So... you're afraid of wearing anything too flashy for your first post-coming-out trip home, on account of Texans’ delicate hetero sensibilities?” “Basically.” She’s looking at him now more like he’s a very complex problem set. “Have you looked at our polling on you in Texas? Since September?” Alex swallows. “No. I, uh.” He scrubs his face with one hand. “The thought, like . . . stresses me out? Like, I keep meaning to go look at the numbers, and then I just. Shut down.” Nora’s face softens, but she doesn’t move closer yet, giving him space. “Alex. You could have asked me. They’re. . . not bad.” He bites his lip. “They’re not?” “Alex, our base in Texas hasn’t shifted on you since September, at all. If anything, they like you more. And a lot of the undecideds are pissed Richards came after a Texas kid. You're really fine.” Oh. Alex exhales a shaky breath, running one hand through his hair. He starts to pace back, away from the door, which he realizes he’s gravitated near as some fight-or-flight reflex. “Okay.” He sits down heavily on the bed. Nora sits gingerly next to him, and when he looks at her, she’s got that sharpness to her eyes like she does when she’s practically reading his mind. “Look. You know I’m not good at the whole like, tactful emotional communication thing, but, uh, June’s not here, so. I’m gonna. Fuckin’. Give it a go.” She presses on. “I don’t think this is just about Texas. You were recently fucking traumatized in a big way, and now you're scared of doing or saying the kind of stuff you actually like and want to because you don’t want to draw any more attention to yourself.”