"I was crazy, you know that, kid? Crazy for wantin' Johnny to stay outa trouble, for not wantin' him to get hard. If he'd been like me he'd never have been in this mess. If he'd got smart like me he'd never have run into that ehurch. That's what you get for helpin' people. Editorials in the paper and a lot of trouble.... You'd better wise up. Pony... you get tough like me and you don't get hurt. Y ou look out for yourself and nothin' can touch you..." He said a lot more stuff, but I didn't get it all. I had a stupid feeling that Dally was out of his mind, the way he kept raving on and on, because Dallas never talked like that, but I think now I would have understood if I hadn't been sick at the time. The cop left us at the hospital as Dally pretended to help me out of the ear. The minute the eop was gone; Dally let go of me so quiek I almost fell. "Hurry!" We ran through the lobby and crowded past people into the elevator. Several people yelled at us, I think beeause we were pretty raeked-up looking, but Dally had nothing on his mind except Johnny, and I was too mixed up to know anything but that I had to follow Dally. When we finally got to Johnny's room, the doetor stopped us. "I'm sorry, boys, but he's dying." "We gotta see him," Dally said, and fiieked out Two-Bit's switchblade. His voice was shaking. "We're gonna see him and if you give me any static you'll end up on your own operatin' table." The doetor didn't bat an eye. "You ean see him, but it's because you're his friends, not because of that knife." Dally looked at him for a second, then put the knife back in his pocket. We both went into Johnny's room, standing there for a second, getting our breath baek in heavy gulps. It was awful quiet. It was scary quiet. I looked at Johnny. He was very still, and for a moment I thought in agony: He's dead already. We're too late. The Outsiders, S.E. Hinton 125